Anyone who follows this blog knows we are faced with a significant date tomorrow… the anniversary of Molly's birth and loss. Sometimes we will refer to September 9th as her birthday, and sometimes we will simply call it "Molly Day," but no matter what we call it, it will always be an emotional date for us.
In honor of Molly Day, I thought it would be fitting to write about the "Molly" playlist that I mentioned in my last "guest post" here. Many people know that music has always been a significant part of my life. I'm not a musician (unless singing in the car and at karaoke counts), but more a collector and lover of music. I love to share good music and songs that are important to me, hence the mix CD gifts at our wedding six years ago and the 24 volumes of "Songs for Debra" CDs that I have given to my lovely wife since we met eight years ago.
Music can be such an important outlet and a way to process and channel emotions that otherwise might not come to the surface. Whatever a person is going through, song lyrics you never noticed before can suddenly scream in your ear, relating to your world and reassuring you that you're not alone. The song may have been written about something completely different, but you latch onto the emotion and make it your own.
After we lost Molly, music helped my brain work through some complex and painful feelings. It helped me feel things I needed to feel, and it kept Molly close to my heart as the months went by, reminding me of my love for her and the heartache of her loss.
I've been listening to my Molly playlist a lot lately. I would have shared so much music with her if she had lived, but for now the best I can do is to share these special songs with all of you. Maybe some of them will connect with you too. Below, I have taken some of the songs and pulled out the lyrics that are significant to me, along with a link to each song. At the end of this list, you'll find the full lyrics and link to a special song, "Gone Too Soon" by Daughtry. It is an emotionally powerful song that is an anthem for many bereaved parents and hits very close to home.
Thank you for reading, for letting me share this music, for supporting us, for giving us joy and hope, for making us laugh, and for keeping Molly in your hearts. One night several months ago, Cole told us that Molly sang to him in his bed. I can't wait to someday find out what songs she's been listening to and sharing.
| "These Hard Times" – Matchbox Twenty http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rwZJg40NLk Oh, there's something missing Oh, you never feel it but you Oh, you're gonna feel it When it's gone, when it's gone Say goodbye, these days are gone And we can't keep holding on When all we need is some relief Through these hard times "Try" – Pink http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPtlSF4TlJE But just because it burns Doesn't mean you're gonna die You've gotta get up and try, and try, and try Gotta get up and try, and try, and try You gotta get up and try, and try, and try Ever worry that it might be ruined And does it make you wanna cry? When you're out there doing what you're doing Are you just getting by? Tell me are you just getting by, by, by "Run" – Snow Patrol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLMyBBZmL2M To think I might not see those eyes Makes it so hard not to cry And as we say our long goodbye I nearly do Light up, light up As if you have a choice Even if you cannot hear my voice I'll be right beside you dear "From Where You Are" – Lifehouse http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tu-IGnL10c So far away from where you are These miles have torn us worlds apart And I miss you, yeah I miss you So far away from where you are I'm standing underneath the stars And I wish you were here I miss the years that were erased I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face I miss all the little things I never thought that they'd mean everything to me Yeah I miss you And I wish you were here I feel the beating of your heart I see the shadows of your face Just know that wherever you are Yeah I miss you And I wish you were here "Here Without You" – 3 Doors Down http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TlDInVqv8cs Everything I know, and anywhere I go It gets hard but it won't take away my love And when the last one falls When it's all said and done It gets hard but it won’t take away my love I'm here without you, baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you, baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you, baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight, girl, it’s only you and me "Under Heaven’s Skies" – Collective Soul http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SIKzYYKEH2k If ever you think careless is the night I'll comfort you with silence 'til the morning light Wherever you turn, wherever you may roam Whatever you conquer, I'll always be your home Cause you're beautiful my love, when I close my eyes yeah you're beautiful my love, under heaven's skies "Gone, Gone, Gone" – Phillip Phillips http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=667tmLl8W74 So I would do it for you, for you. Baby, I'm not moving on I love you long after you're gone. For you, for you. You would never sleep alone. I love you long after you're gone And long after you're gone gone gone. Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating Like a drum my heart never stops beating For you "Open Your Eyes" – Snow Patrol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtAGQTKC89Q All this feels strange and untrue And I won't waste a minute without you My bones ache, my skin feels cold And I'm getting so tired and so old The anger swells in my guts And I won't feel these slices and cuts I want so much to open your eyes 'Cause I need you to look into mine Tell me that you'll open your eyes "Perfect" - P!nk http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BIye98Ryic Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel Like you're less than, less than perfect. Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, You are perfect to me! |
"Forever" – Vertical Horizon http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y7TYRHDGffI And I don't know if you see me here But I can tell you your face is clear I will see you... Forever Forever I will see you Forever Forever I wanted you to be everything to me Now I've got to learn to carry on I know I cannot hide this emptiness inside But nothing is the same since you've gone Send me letters from above Send me strength, send me love Such sweet love Sing me songs that echo in my head and in my heart That's where you are And I don't know if you feel me here I can tell you one thing that's clear I will feel you... Forever "Daughter" – Loudon Wainwright III http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trtUCX9aRm4 That's my daughter in the water every time she fell I caught her. Every time she fell. That's my daughter in the water, I lost every time I fought her. Yea, I lost every time. "Yellow" – Coldplay http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=91B9lOG8It8 Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you, And everything you do, Yeah, they were all yellow. Your skin, Oh yeah your skin and bones, Turn into Something beautiful, And you know, For you I'd bleed myself dry, For you I'd bleed myself dry. "Baby Don’t You Cry" – Quincy Coleman http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qSY5E8Vvums Baby here's the sun Baby here's the sky Baby I'm your light and I'm your shelter Baby you are mine I could freeze the time Keep you in my kitchen with me forever Gonna be a pie from heaven above Gonna be filled with strawberry love Baby don't you cry Gonna make a pie And hold you forever in the middle of my heart. "Daylight" – Maroon 5 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wg9Urm2_7xQ Here I am staring at your perfection In my arms, so beautiful The sky is getting bright, the stars are burning out Somebody slow it down This is way too hard, cause I know When the sun comes up, I will leave This is my last glance that will soon be memory And when the daylight comes I'll have to go But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own But tonight I need to hold you so close "I Will" – Matchbox Twenty http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DzaisD5uSQ If you go Take a little piece of me Hang it by the place you sleep And dream of me Don't leave Just sleep away Don't let it go Don't let it fade Your dreams may cave And falling apart It's the only way We go so low When you don't know I will "What Hurts the Most" – Rascal Flatts http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGzKCTDGxbU What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that lovin' you Is what I was tryin' to do "Wake Me Up When September Ends" – Green Day http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVO8sUrs-Pw Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are As my memory rests But never forgets what I lost Wake me up when September ends Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September ends |
"Gone Too Soon" – Daughtry
Today could have been the day,
That you blow out your candles,
Make a wish as you close your eyes.
Today could have been the day,
Everybody was laughing,
Instead I just sit here and cry,
Who would you be?
What would you look like,
When you looked at me for the very first time?
Today could have been the next day of the rest of your life.
Not a day goes by,
That I don't think of you,
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose,
Such a ray of light we never knew,
Gone too soon, yeah.
Would you have been president
Or a painter, an author, or sang like your mother?
One thing is evident,
Would've given all I had,
Would've loved you like no other.
Who would you be,
What would you look like,
Would you have my smile and her eyes?
Today could have been the next day of the rest of your life.
Not a day goes by,
That I don't think of you,
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose,
Such a ray of light we never knew,
Gone too soon, yeah.
Not a day goes by,
Oh
I'm always asking why.
Not a day goes by,
That I don't think of you,
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose,
Such a beautiful light we never knew,
Gone too soon,
You were gone too soon
Yeah.
Not a day goes by,
That I don't think of you.
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